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Hello to all my watchers and friends on deviantart! There is something I felt like writing down today, just for the sake of getting it off my chest.

Don’t worry its not at all sad, its actually kind of funny! :D (Big Grin) 


I would like to share how I feel about the very nice people on deviantart and the people around me in general.

I feel so happy that I have friends in this world, and have met so many nice people who take interest in my Carwailea project, but I feel that it is rather difficult for me to completely adjust to the way most people think. Not in a bad way, just in a way that makes me feel strangely older than I should at the age of 18 because of the fictional second life I have lived on Carwailea as my Carwaileon persona, Rayem.

Rayem is currently over 50 years old, and has experienced adventure, war, peace, friendship, love, marriage, and even raising children.

Even as my real self, I feel like I have lived so long and feel like an old soul, yet I am still young and not yet capable of so many things most Humans can do because of the fact that I’m still only 18 in my real life.


I think it all changed for me when in my Carwailea life, my persona Rayem had children with Riza.
It was the most wonderful and beautiful experience of my life as Rayem, so wonderful that it even changed my perception of things in the real world.

I cannot ever be the same again since I became a father as Rayem. I feel that I need to protect and care for everyone and everything I hold dear, just like a parent. I feel like a Dad all the time,
even when it is not at all necessary.

Strangely, I somehow feel like a father all the time. I feel old. I feel strangely mature, and it conflicts with my surroundings in the real world, as I am still only 18 years old in reality and shouldn't really be thinking of things like a father yet.

I really shouldn’t feel like a father yet, but I do. I feel like a father all the time to almost everyone. I feel fatherly towards most of my friends, even though many of them are older than me. It is quite funny. Giggle 

But still, as confusing as my strange mind is, The fatherly emotions I am experiencing is still a beautiful feeling, but it is all from fiction, but if it is fiction, can it still count if it feels no less real to me than reality? ...

Do my fictional years in Carwailea count in my real life too in terms of wisdom and how old I feel? ...

I guess that is something I still have to find out.

But I honestly do not think much of it either way. I feel like an old soul, and I am happy with who I am, no matter how unusual my mind is for an 18 year old Human.

I think what is most important to any person is to be happy and comfortable with who they are.

I certainly am, and I hope all of my kind watchers and friends on deviantart are comfortable with who they are too. It is always good to be happy, and proud of who you are. :) (Smile)
Toni, my friend who voices Riza has her own account on Deviantart. Here is a link to it, if anyone is interested. aliczia14.deviantart.com/

Also, if anyone would like to draw Riza or any of my own characters, by all means go ahead! I would love to see artwork of my Carwailea universe done by other artists. But just make sure to credit me, and my team for anything you draw that belongs to the Carwailea copyright. Also inform me if you post anything Carwailea related, and I might just become a watcher of your site too.

If anyone wants to see a specific thing screen captured in my modded Skyrim, please let me know. I can capture more screenshots of my characters doing anything ...
In quests, exploring modded lands, doing things you might not know were even possible in Skyrim.

Anyone is free to comment down below if you have any ideas of what I can take screenshots of next in the game. Until then, I'll just keep uploading more screenshots of my own ideas.
If anyone would like to draw Riza or any of my own characters, by all means go ahead! I would love to see artwork of my Carwailea universe done by other artists. But just make sure to credit me, and my team for anything you draw that belongs to the Carwailea copyright. Also inform me if you post anything Carwailea related, and I might just become a watcher of your site too. 
I have uploaded Skyrim videos to my YouTube account. If you want to see some gameplay of my heavily modded Skyrim which all my screenshots are taken from, you can visit my YouTube account through this link,

www.youtube.com/channel/UCIPXXgjhQRElDJnm9SceASw

If anyone wants to see a specific thing screen captured in my modded Skyrim, please let me know. I can capture more screenshots of my characters doing anything ...
In quests, exploring modded lands, doing things you might not know were even possible in Skyrim.

Anyone is free to comment down below if you have any ideas of what I can take screenshots of next in the game. Until then, I'll just keep uploading more screenshots of my own ideas.
There is a new voice test for the Vissorith out now on Youtube! I hope you all like it. Any comments to the video would be very much appreciated. Sweating a little... Thank you.
A voice test we made for Carwailea has been uploaded to YouTube! Just search for Rayem and Riza on my channel, Dylan Rosen.
Its not animated though, its just our voices alongside two Facerig characters I made to look like Rayem and Riza.
The recordings are randomized from the episodes we have already voiced, but they don't give away any story.
I voice Rayem, and my friend Toni voices Riza.